I know he would never hurt me. He cares about me very much. It's ridiculously obvious...he only tried to tell me this today because he cares about my future and my independence.

Unfortunately it was the worst land mine, or trigger, he could have hit on. I can't handle it yet. Im not stable, or secure enough to tolerate the thought of it without panicking. We will have to learn from this.

I'm on the edge of crisis right now. I know he didn't intentionally do this. But it happened and I need to try and cope, because its to late to get in touch with him.