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Old Sep 24, 2012, 10:38 PM
MargoMay32 MargoMay32 is offline
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Whenever I get "told" don't do that, don't touch that, I feel like I'm 6 again and I'm being screamed at. It literally makes me feel terrorfied of the person who is "telling" me off.

I had this happen with a roommate of mine when I opened her wine without asking her, I mean I acknowledged that I went wrong there, but now...I can't even be in the same room as her because I fear that she hates me. I feel like I'm 6 and my mother just caught me shoving sticks in the garbage disposal. And when this happens I feel so much overwhelming emotions of grief, anger, denial, sadness and paranoia that I shut down. I go to the bathroom and I turn the water on so to drowned out the voices that echo all this in my head.

I know she can't hate me over that, but I feel it so much that I absolutely believe it to be the truth. Right now she's down there with my other two roommates watching Conan and I can't even physically go down there for fear of feeling her hatred; (may it be reality or not.)

How would you cope with these emotions that come flooding when I get "told" by someone I personally know?
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