Well, you are talking about labels and it's one of my pet peeves. I was taught all my life not to give people labels and now I find I have some. Anyway, around here you do not need to have the illness to go to the forum. You can go to any forum and post there if you think it will be of any help to you. I think this one is a good start. I also feel that you need to get into some sort of therapy soon. We will all support you and try to help. You belong here at PC with all the rest of us.