You are amazing. You analyze yourself. You know why things are happening and you know it will end. No medication AND no therapist. I tried it without medication and no therapy and just about lost my mind and thought of doing something foolish. I was med free for over half a year. I had to go back on the meds. I was going to hurt me or someone else. The anger had gotten that intense. I wish I was a strong as you. You are simply amazing.