Well here's a short update of all that transpired since I posted this last. It has been a wild ride indeed! I began feeling the feeling of anger, sober and aware. I view my lifetime in this manner: It was as if I was in a life-threatening car accident 20 years ago. Then I was taken and frozen into a large block of Artic ice, like Encino man lol. 20 years later, I was unfrozen by sobriety.

Behold, I was still the injured man. Instead of acknowledging past trauma, I suppressed all I possibly could. I rebuked all feelings, including anger. I blamed myself in order not to feel angry at others. Others blamed me too, so that was a no-brainer lol. It was easier to suppress this excruciation while not being sober. Now that I have chosen to live life on life's terms through sobriety, the pain inevitably surfaces. The anger I had always rebuked, had to surface. It had to burn it's fury. It lasted about an hour.

I was still in control of my actions and words. I did not know that was how anger worked, so I panicked. Once it came, I made dinner for the kids. We ate together. The anger subsided as I worked through the issues that caused it. It came, It went. I am a wiser person because of it. This is a learning experience. I did not know what anger would do to me. I did not know I could remain in control of myself while processing anger in a healthy manner.

I could! I did! I am living life on life's terms, and I am happy to report I am still sober!!! I cannot justly accept all credit for my accomplishments. I have a strong faith in a Higher Power. I know that I did not create myself, but He did. This has been the anchor to my soul, as the white squall rages around me. I was safe in His arms all along.

Yall have been so supportive, and I believe that I was led by the Spirit to this forum to receive the final nail in the coffin. The past is dead. Behold, I am alive forevermore! I am free, and I am choosing to stay that way! Thanks for the support yall! Sincerely, Glinda Gail