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Originally Posted by Binti1962
Not often, but about every couple of months I fly into a violent homicidal rage and feel like I'm watching it happen with no control over the situation. I feel disconnected. The rages don't last long, but are very hurtful for my family.
is this part of having bipolar II, or some other mental illness? I do take Abilify and it has helped a lot, but I still have the occasional rage episode. 
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I'm not sure if it's related to bipolar but I can relate. Fortunately and by sheer coincidence, my children have never witnessed my rage but my husband has. So have my parents and friends. The fight or flight kicks in, adrenaline pumping, and I am "seeing red". I've actually had one of my fights video recorded (without my knowing) and I watched the vid at a later time and I don't recall any of it. I was screaming the most obscene and vulgar things, literally taking the other woman's head and bashing it into the curb. It was like I was possessed and it scared me to see it. It was like I was watching someone else and I didn't know I had that much physical strength. I am also liable to start swinging on someones face, throwing things, breaking things.
NOT stuff I'm proud of but I think I'm better with that stuff now than I was before.