I love that song! And I've been where you are right now. I don't have much advice but I can say that you deserve better. I know this because no one deserves to be abused, especially by the ones they love the most. Can you see past the love? Can you see the hurt he puts you through? Can you see the not-nice person? Being mean and abusive, hurtful makes someone really ugly. Be strong and don't give in. It's no good. No good for you. I hope that you can rise above this and see what you really deserve. See that you deserve to be treated like a human being worthy of respect.