Hey everyone. I'm new hear, but I thought I would jump in, so to speak. I've had issues with SI for 4 years or so now, on and off. I've taken meds and gone to therapy. The meds made me angry and the therapy makes me self conscious.
Anyhoo, for some reason, I am just SO angry today. I've already done some 'superficial' cuts', just to see, you know? And, it hasn't helped yet. So, here I am, sitting here with my knife and 2 empty beer bottles and a half-empty one!
I know this is wrong, but I can't pinpoint where these feelings are coming from. The thing is, I work in the medical field. I know what I am doing is wrong, which perhaps makes me more 'careful' so to speak; cleaning my knife/arm with alcohol preps before hand. I just don't know where I am. I have no where to go, no one to talk to, no one who understands.
Nikki