I can and WILL rise above this... See I have this overpowering ability to think of things how they will affect my children in the future... Like when my husband cheated on me no fear, no jealousy, no anger.... All I thought was my daughter will NOT be raised to think this is okay from her husband, my boys will not be raised to think it is okay to do this to their wife.
I think the hardest part is the little movements inside of me, the hormones, the fact I am hiding this and running. He has absolutely no idea... All he knows is one day I started decreasing meds rapidly, quit drinking and moved out.
Problem being.... His exwife lives in my apartments, I was outside playing with the kids last night ( I know her schedule) she came home from work and the look she had in her eyes when she saw me said it all.... I've been up and down all night waiting for a text or a knock at my door. She has always told me she completely understands why I left and how unlucky she is that she has kids with him and I have always just agreed but OMG that look woah..
This is the first time I've ever mentioned it to anyone besides my Dr's wow it feels good to get it out too