Hi I'm new here, I'm looking for advice right now, hopefully you guys have some, sorry if this gets whiny or annoys anyone.

Anyways, I was in therapy (through my old university) over a year ago, at the time I was going through a rough time, had some anxiety issues, suicidal ideation and was kinda depressed, although I lied to the T when he asked about it (which was often.) That summer I moved back home to work, and whent through a really rough period (crying everyday, withdrawn, sullen ect.) When I whent back to school in September my mom wanted (nagged) me to go back into therapy but due to a) guilty fealing about waisting the T time when other student's could use it and b) the last visit with the T involving role playing that I thought was bizarre (I don't have much of a imagination and to me it was still a middle aged man acting out a female 20 something.) So I lied to my mom, told her I was still in therapy (when I wasn't) and after a eventual period told her that the T had said I didn't need to return to therapy.

My life was getting better during this time to, and the 'sorta-depression' started to sorta-lift, there were still times where I felt depressed but they wern't as frequent or severe. Unfortunatley I started to 'SI' during this time. I've never cut deep enough to require stickes, although there were a few times when stickes would have been advisable. As well I gave myself a skin infection through obsessive hair pulling of leg hair.

Close to the end of term I was starting to get more depressed/ stressed out and was cutting more and more, so I whent back to the university T again and admitted to the stressed out fealing and cutting ( I was to embarised to admit to the leg har pulling.) I made a second appointment to talk to the guy and hopefully get a referal to another agency. Unfortunatly I had to cancel the second appointment due to a work commitment.

Since then I've been feeling more and more 'depressed' (sorta like being emotionally squashed by a garbage compactor) and I'm still cutting myself.

Oh my gosh, I'm sorry this has taken so long. Anyways I guess my questions are a) if you think going back to therapy would help (since I've already been in therapy once.)
b)If you know if it's possible to get case notes from one agency to another so I don't have to re-hash everything to another therapist.
c) I have faith based EAP, I am not a very spiritual/ religious person (although I respect those who are) would this make a difference when choosing a therapist ( since this is the most cost-effective option and I have a tuition debt to pay off.)

Again I'm sorry this is so long