Does it get worse when things are worse with your family? Or at times that you feel helpless? Check out Harm OCD too..it may be similar...being afraid of doing things you wouldn't do..it happened to me when I was on a bad med..was developing chronic pain and a lupus like disease...I have PTSD with an unsupportive family..and it was flares of the fight or fight mechanism and extreme anxiety because I was trapped and helpless in an abusive situation..the thoughts were a way of directing suicidal thoughts away from myself i think..i was scared of the worst things happening that were not my character..(now that I think about it they were probably much related to other people thinking bad things of me that weren't true)..I also have horrible self esteem and will punish myself and think I'm a loser because my family does..I am subconsciously self destructive because of it ...it seems to change when I'm not surrounded by them and not alone...finding councelor may be super beneficial if any of this is similar to you..or even if not...I'm alo sorry it took people a while to reply..and know it was scary...something to distract until u get to each appointment may help...lavendar oil on ur pillow or valerian root (this one was really helpful for my anxiety at times and sleep)...I will sing a song when I hurt a lot..counting down "only a few months..weeks days..hours minutes...only a second longer till it goes away"...and some slow breathing techniques...you can go to the er if u need to...it is calming to break it up in chunks like minutes etc...hope something of my post was helpful...am keeping u in mind..hugs