Amazing and true advice InMyMindsSight. Well said indeed. I agree wholeheartedly. We are here to support you. You are definitely not alone or trapped or doomed. There is healing. There is hope. You are not lost forever my friend. Please update us with any new happenings. If you're in the hospital and don't see this until you are released, the same is always true. Maybe if you can plant yourself here for a while you can come out of this shortly and decrease your symptoms. Praying for the best for you my friend. Sincerely, Glinda Gail