Sweetie, drugs can be fun for a while, but they will destroy you. I am telling you this from my own experience. They are not the solution to your problem. It's like hitting yourself on the head with a hammer so you won't feel the pain in your feet. When we have emotional problems, the drug use only makes it more complicated and dangerous. I really wish you would try to get some professional help before something very bad happens. There are other ways to change the way we feel. They are not easy, but the effort is very rewarding. I want you to live and have joy in your life, and you can have it if you really want it. Your boyfriend can comfort you, but he can't help you with this. And you can't be there for him or help him if you don't help yourself. I would steer away from witchcraft, good or bad, it is just a distraction from the truth.