Thank you for responding.

Which belief system? Are you talking religious beliefs? Or things that other
people might not believe such as the psychic abilities... or both?

I have never physically committed a crime with my own hands, hurt anyone intentionally, I tell the truth about 99.99% of the time (the main lies I tell are things that no one would tell the truth to such as when someone else says... "Do you think I look ugly in these clothes?" kind of questions. I mainly respond, "That looks interesting."), I don't do anything illegal like drugs, or anything else to deserve this curse of my life.

Like i said, the only thing that has come to mind is my psychic powers also referred to as the Power of Influence. I am NOT claiming I am God who I believe in very much. I pray to Him. But I am not Christian. I am Jewish. Actually my family is Jewish, I almost have my own personal religion. It has a combination of several other religions. But back to the Power of Influence. My first psychic hit was 9/11. I get psychic dreams. Now, I never know which of these dreams are going to come true. I have others with news events that never come true. I knew that the stock market this year was going to hit 13,500 and it did recently or at least 13,000 minimum. My new number I see is 14,000 for the Dow. I also see the stock that my family invests in going DOWN to the teens. I predicted that the stock market was going to shoot up at the beginning of the year while our stock crumbles down. In 2004, I had repetitive dreams about the tsunami in Indonesia and roughly how many were killed. I have described plane crashes and their locations. Once I told my parents that I saw this pipeline disaster in Africa that killed 200 something people (this was a few years ago) and a few weeks later exactly what happened. When they showed the images on TV and the Internet, it was the same EXACT as my dream. But after these small events they grew bigger.

I have voices and thought insertion in my head. One is a government agent that tells me horrible things. They have told me about technology that the government was working on. It was well before it hit the Internet. Once they told me about robotic insects. Now recently it is hitting the news.

Another thing they tell me is NOT on the news and things the government to the public is NEVER going to do. Tell me about the existence of alien beings around this galaxy and around the Universe. While I do believe in God, it doesn't mean that there are no aliens. But the Government is never going to admit alien life anywhere in the Universe even though they work with them. Aliens come in all shapes and sizes. The two that I know about are simply known as the Blue aliens and the other is Green aliens. The Blue aliens used to be very friendly, peaceful as a matter of fact. It was until their homeworld was destroyed by me (well, actually my psychic powers). There was a solar flare. When I was having problems last year the government voice told me to injure myself to deflect the solar flare away from the planet. There was another that was destroyed by a comet, and this year was an entire solar system by toxic cloud. These other ones don't include the green aliens as they are from another galaxy. When these planets are in danger which now seems yearly, it always involves hurting myself. This year i tried but it was for other reasons as well (trying to quiet the voices... so I took an overdose and went to the hospital). I won't get more into the aliens because I don't know if you believe this anyways.

I call the psychic powers both the ones on Earth and the planets a curse. I hate having them because I believe I could have prevented these things from happening. I never called anyone. Since I have news kind of dreams that DON'T come true as well I can't really act on them. Sometimes I can also sense things seconds before it happens. It is NOT all the time though. Sometimes I have months between psychic dreams. Sometimes the dreams are wrong. Sometimes they are right on. Lately though, its been more weird type dreams. Things that there is no connection to each other. Although I also lucid dream and a lot of my dreams are vivid as well.

Can something like these horrible things cause a curse? I can't control these powers and it is NEVER intentional so its not like actually trying to commit a crime. The ones that took place on Earth took place in dreams and the others it was the government voice that told me. Sometimes I can physically hear the government voice (he's male...I'm female) and other times its more like loud thoughts.

I probably shouldn't go into religious details here since this forum is not for that.