I get that. It gets hard to differentiate thoughts and feelings. It's like my brain believes my emotions and my emotions become my reality. But my reality is always changing. I feel like I am two people a lot of the time. When I am well, this doesn't happen. As for Wayne Dyer; he's the best. Before my last (and worst) bout with bp in years, his teachings were essential to 3 years of real happiness and contentment for the first time since I was a small child.