I have sort of had to "trick" myself into stuff. Or even bribe myself. lol. It's bad. I'll trick or bribe myself to hang out with a friend once or so, and then I never want to do it again and then that friend pushes me away because they keep asking and I keep saying "Yea maybe". Usually I need people to just be pushy, show up at my door unannounced and say "we're going somewhere". Then I can't think about how I can't. I just can't. "I CAN'T". Most of my friends are afraid to push though, they're afraid they'll push me away, but I'm not actually that sensitive. I've had the same friends since I was young. Most of them dangle on a stick as I sit here and decide what I'm doing with myself. They're afraid to leave. But they're afraid to stay. So they just dangle. I can't reach them, and they can't reach me.