Welcome to PC ((tangerine))) I'm concerned about you too! There's no such thing as kinda depressed or sort-of depressed when you are entertaining suicide I'm glad to hear that you are returning to therapy, and hope you realize it's for your benefit... to share and work hard.

IMO the background education / credentials are what are important with a therapist... there are plenty of faith based counselors who are quite adept and there are some clinical psychologists that aren't. It might not be a good fit with the first new T you try, but please keep looking for one you feel you can share with... you're worth it! TC!