Hi Dmalice. Hope it's relaxing a bit for you. Come on here anytime and let us know how you are. It's tough right now but keeping in touch with people here can help keep your perspective and support you. May I ask when your appointment is? Keep your focus Dmalice and keep in touch. It's scary and daunting when you don't understand why you feel bad. Get the appointment done and let people who understand these things help you. They can and do help people all the time. Just hang in there man. Let it all hang out here if it helps. There's plenty of time to work things out in life after you get some help with what's going on in your thoughts. Remember that.