Welcome!!! I'm pretty new on here and asked this same question. I was diagnosed years ago and after some very confusing and self-destructive events, I had to accept being BP. The meds are actually life savers. Im on Lamictal with Wellbutrin and I feel like I've found a new life. I understand why I've done what I have done in the past. Things become More clear. Been able to repair alot of damage I created to myself and others. It's ok to feel strange about it. BP is not understood by many. It's a chemical imbalance and you're helping yourself. That's awesome. So many people out there have mental illnesses and honestly as you see things more clearly with meds, you'll see many people who no doubt can use some meds themselves lol most important thing is to get the right meds and start to enjoy life with a more rational mind. It may take awhile to accept but you are NOT alone. We are all here for anything life throws at you hugs