I couldn't help it the Monster was set free from prison and all I could think of was cutting myself. The pressure had been building up for days and then the phone call confirming my worst nightmare come true and well I went off the deep end. I felt a kind of high afterwards and a sense of peace which calmed me and allowed my heart rate to slow was beating rather fast earlier. I tried my usual stuff to keep from it but it had to be done to save myself from something worse. Now the hard part begins living in the same state with the monster paroled now that is a challenge I don't know I can handle. I'll need all the help in the world dealing with this one.

Lin-Lin