lol, did you see what i wrote on the peace post? are you my astro-twin?

i was just where you are passion... except... i wasn't married and i rarely got caught. i admitted the women i'd slept with to him. i haven't done anything in 9 months. and i decided i wasn't going to admit it all to him and hurt him just to alleviate my guilt. but i'm also trying to leave the relationship because some important things like emotional needs were not being met. i'm pretty mixed up right now about this topic.

anyway, found the right med combo (for now) - one that didn't make me feel like a different person, because I won't go for that! yes, much much mourning. and wondered if my marriage 20 years ago and my children were products of mania! but you can't go there, i drove myself crazy going there, these wonderful things and disastrous things of our past are still ours, our journey, part of the great mystery of life. you will find your answers and your balance, we all will. we show we are working on it by just showing up in here and talking about it.