I feel some of the things you are feeling right now, but pleasssssseeeee keep thinking positive and fight those feelings away. As Leed said, there should be someone replace your therapist place, call the office and ask for another one, if she taking leaves this much like you said, then you better changed to another therapist who could really listen to you every week since you are depending on this and asked if you could add more hours every week, I'm glad you find therapy helping you and you should focus on this and get as much help as you can in this.

I'm sorry for your disability, is there any group out there for people with physical disability? Can you find it and join them? I'm sure they can share their experience with you and relate how you feel. Try to do some small things that you can able to do it, make yourself feel accomplishment which you are currently not feeling, that may help with your confidence.

Regarding your boyfriend, you are such a caring person, do you know that?? Even though you are depending on him so much and always share your problems/feelings with him, you are still worrying about him, burdening him. I know some people don't care how others feel, they just take everything from others for granted, not appreciate one bit. So your worrying about him is one of your many good qualities!!!!!

I also afraid to unload my problems to others worrying that I may burden them too much. What I do is I also find other ways to channel my problems/feelings, like this site. So you do the right thing to write out your feelings on here, let others hear you and support you. Try to talk with your boyfriend, let him know you also care about him like you are now, you also understand his family needs him too, try asking how his family going, share his problems too. So he wouldn't feel his taking care of you is not being reciprocated. Hope you will get better soon and keep us posted.