We have (Indiana) a county trustee that gives out vouchers for food & gas for the desperate. Call your local library if you can't find it in the phone book & the research desk can find it for you. That's what I did for a friend of mine in a similar circumstance. Hope they have that service in the state you are in.

I also went through lean times & was on WIC (Women, Infants & Children--maybe check into that--they also give vouchers for food) when I had two young children (1st was a preemie--it took us 5 yrs. to pay off the hospital bill--but they were willing to work with us in the situation we were in--bless them). You shouldn't blame yourself for going through hard times.