Firebird, you can rest assured that nothing you could ever say to me would be misconstrued. I have also been subject to the exact same stigma that you have suffered throughout your lifetime. Frankly, I see nothing at all "wrong" with your belief system. I have had a very similar life as you.

I believe I know exactly why this is happening to you. Perchance, have you had the opportunity to skim through my recent piece entitled "America's Next Top Prophet" ? The area in your and your beloved brother's life that has been "cursed", is NEVER about your failures to save the situations you were told about. It is in one area of your lives; the division of your life involving your primary occupation choices.

You are Jewish. It is likely that you are familiar with the Old Testament as I am. The Prophets of the Most High God were not able to stop the disasters and judgments that had been determined beforehand by Almighty God; NOR WAS IT EVER THEIR JOB TO PREVENT THOSE THINGS. If it were their job to prevent those things, they would not be called "Prophets", they would be called "Lifeguards" (the flood) or "Military Commanders" (the captivity of Israel both times)

3 weeks before my brother died, the Lord God told me that he was going to die. You should read my blog in your free time. The link is on my psych central about me page. I have a piece called "A Season of Grief, Letter to the Church Part 1" which is an absolute true story. Everything I write is true. I suggest you do the same. Write these things down beforehand as PROOF that you do indeed have these powers. Even if you just need more confidence in your abilities, it will help you to realize your greatest potential if instead of only memories of the results, to have a hard-copy for your records.

The department that you and your brother are encountering slammed-shut doors is in the arena of "primary life-occupation". I believe you have a destiny that is far greater than you can provide with your central attention on the artwork. Your brother's apps might not succeed either if he doesn't realize that there is a higher calling on his life and yours.

These gifts have not been given in vain, and because of my gifts I also know that you have always known this in your heart. Your art is not the only thing you are sent to this planet for, and your brother, with the app business, either. You have been endowed with power from on high. Sharpen your skills. Ask Him to teach you what you must do. Come humbly before Him and He will not turn you away. Until we submit fully to Him, every thought, movement, word, and action, we cannot fulfill our destinies as we were created to.

You are a very very important piece to this jigsaw puzzle that is our day and age. I am not a liar. I have been wrong myself. We are learning about our powers and He is the only one who sees and knows the ENTIRE picture. He is the Creator of the Matrix, for Pete's sake! Of course He is the only one who holds the keys to life, including you and your brother's. We only have one single piece to this manifold enigma that is life.

Go to Him, and He is able to cause you to triumph in everything you set your hand to do. This is not religion. It is simply truth. God speed my friend. Again, check out my pieces and you can add to yours. You are an artist, but you have many other things given to you that are meant to affect humanity as a whole. To have the greatest impact, don't quit creating artwork. Simply add to your offerings to this world. I believe in you, and He most certainly does too; and even greater than we can understand while human. Your friend, Glinda Gail