Denial for sure. I was really shocked by the dx and now I am not really sure why that was because it seemed to explain a lot. I am still wrapping my brain around it but the hardest part now for me is I don't know who I am, I don't know what is my "normal" or "stable". It sorta sucks. I am confused by it more than anything; how much of me is really me and how much is the bp? makes me kinda sad when I think of certain past moments and relieved with others. If nothing else, I am taking advantage of this new insight and trying to sort through all of the pieces to try to put the puzzle of tree together. xo 
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BP 2, GAD
Meds: 300 mg Lamotrigine
600 mg Lithium
5 mg Aripiprazole (currently tapering off)
Clonazepam as needed
Supplements: Vitamin D, Inositol, Melatonin, L-Theanine, CBD oil
be gentle with yourself.
you are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
-max ehrmann
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