Big hugs, Peaches. I am sorry about your husband. I am working on trauma stuff also, and I have expressed to my T that I am concerned about getting out all the pain and horror I have packed away inside and then not being able to get it all back put away and contained by the time the session ends. I end up disconcerted and unable to concentrate at work. I'm numb right after the appointment, usually, but the distress re-occurs (it seems) a day or so after the appointment. We used to meet on Thursdays, but moved the appointments to Tuesdays, so I could call him if I needed help a day or two after the appointment.

I don't have any good answers. We have been slowly slogging through my yucky stuff. slllloooooooowwwwwwlllly. I just keep trying because I want so much for things to be different. Maybe you just need a bit of a break.