I still consider myself newly diagnosed (less than a year) and the "lifelong" aspect of actually having BP just keeps slamming into my reality, the way the airplanes slammed into the World Trade Center on 9/11/01. Yes, it's changed my personality some because now I have this shame and guilt from a lifetime of being part of a family who never knew how I was going to behave from day to day. Of course I can't go back and fix it; it's just that for the first time in my life, I'm able to glimpse what it must've been like for them to live with a bipolar wife, mother, sister. And I feel awful about it.
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DX: Bipolar 1
Anxiety
Tardive dyskinesia
Mild cognitive impairment
RX: Celexa 20 mg
Gabapentin 1200 mg
Geodon 40 mg AM, 60 mg PM
Klonopin 0.5 mg PRN
Lamictal 500 mg
Levothyroxine 125 mcg (rx'd for depression)
Trazodone 150 mg
Zyprexa 7.5 mg
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