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Originally Posted by BipolaRNurse
I still consider myself newly diagnosed (less than a year) and the "lifelong" aspect of actually having BP just keeps slamming into my reality, the way the airplanes slammed into the World Trade Center on 9/11/01. Yes, it's changed my personality some because now I have this shame and guilt from a lifetime of being part of a family who never knew how I was going to behave from day to day. Of course I can't go back and fix it; it's just that for the first time in my life, I'm able to glimpse what it must've been like for them to live with a bipolar wife, mother, sister. And I feel awful about it.  |
Aww Nurse. We all have those things. I also wonder what its been like for my fam to have a bipolar mom, sis, daughter, etc. I just told my mom about my dx on Tuesday. She told me, "honey, it doesn't change you, you're still you."
So even though I/you/everyone here, do/have done/will do weird, unpredictable things or be weird or unpredictable, we are still the people we always were. I don't think you should be ashamed. I think if you haven't, you should consider forgiving yourself. I'm hugging you in my mind. (((bipolaRNurse)))
