So I've been in total crisis since Monday. I even broke down in called him yesterday. Something I've never done in a year of seeing him. I'm spiraling downward and idk why. I woke up to a text from him wanting to know how I was doing today. I told him how defeated I was. He told me that I shouldn't be, and to try and see the reality. But I keep just going down. I'm afraid to see him tomorrow. Idk what he's going to do or say. Idk if its even going to help. I'm just too low right now. I feel hopeless.