I totally relate to your post. I too am someone who seems to have so much and manage so much and yet feel incompetant. I too am someone people come to for guidance and yet can't find my way out of this black hole. It is the ups and the downs that are hard sometimes.

I had a really down week last week what I did do was write down what I was feeling so I could look at it piece by piece. I also tried to make a list of things I could do to make my days easier. Then I also made a point when I was happy to write down the things that I was able to appreciate in the moment. I find that notebook full of things can help me get things into perspective.

I am so sorry you are having a bad day. I hope it goes better from here on.