Impulsive. I just haven't stopped spiraling and its out of control. He's really getting hit hard and he probably isn't even putting any of it together. I don't want to see him tomorrow. I don't want to hear about how unstable I am. I don't want to hear about texting him 10x a day. I don't want to be reminded about how bad in doing. If he brings up the hospital I'm not going to be very happy.