I feel your pain, although I can't relate to what you are going through. I have the same feelings, but mine are emotional pains and scars, not physical.

You have to see the good in life. It is hard, but is the alternative any better? We are here to live our life, and we only get one chance to live this life. I know, it sucks. Life is filled with more stress and pain than joy, but when we allow ourselves to feel that joy it is an amazing thing. I don't know what happens to us when we die, I think I do, but none of us really know. Isn't it better to live our full lives, that we were meant to live, before finding out what waits for us after this?

Things can change rapidly. Look at how many people go on the news not able to afford medical treatment and millions of viewers donate to them. Miracles do happen, and can happen to you if you are open to it and allow it to happen. Don't give up now, it's not worth it.