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Originally Posted by lostmyway21
I can normally recieve his feedback. In fact his is very honest and direct in his approach with me to avoid confusion. I misinterpret things. It works. It didn't work last session. But I don't really care because that session doesn't matter anymore. I don't care about my relationship or attachment or abandonment. I don't want to talk about it anymore. I don't care if its important. I don't want to deal with anything anymore. I don't see the point in trying.
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Lost, I think Antimatter and MUE are saying you aren't in a place to hear feedback from us either. I would not take that as a criticism, but simply a description of the place you're in right now.
I hear that you feel you are in crisis. I hear that you cannot differentiate between the reality of right now and the possibility of the future. You are hurting and that seems to be causing your spiral out of control.
I guess I missed enough of the thread or perhaps another thread that explained why you are off your meds, but I can tell you from personal experience that when in crisis, going off my meds was one of the worst things I could do. I've done that. It did not help me. It made things worse. If you can go back on them, please, please do. I think that would help tremendously.
Also, in this time right now when you are thinking of giving up, it is most critical that you do not. I can tell your T cares about you. Please, please go tomorrow and tell him
exactly how you feel.
I hope you don't misinterpret my words. I am trying to show I care.
