Why I don't post much about myself?

First of all because since the day I was born I wasn't important in the eyes of others. My feelings and my security didn't mean nothing to others.( that includes also in the eyes of my familly of birth).

As an adult I was also rejected many times. Why? Maybe you will not believe this part of me but I am strong. I have great determination, uplifting spirit and my meaning of life is so very important to me. It takes a lot to bring me down but I do go down because I also meet people that are stronger then me with mean words and abusive ways. Rejection is something that always hit me hard. Always.

Also I don't say too much because I have been hurt online very much. So much that it almost brought me to suicide. (Not on this site). I'm still having trouble accepting this part of my online experience. It almost destroyed me because I have put too much of my heart in it. Way too much!

I have also gotten stuck online because I came to close to someone, a man. What I didn't reliased is that man has fallen in love with me. For me he was just a friend. But it got out of hand. He traced my IP addy and he found out exactly where I live. He wanted to come to my home even me insisting that no and no. He was obcessed with me. My husband would have kill me. That man was putting me in danger. I had to moved.

Now with me being rejected as a child, rejected as aldult and my bad experiences online, I don't trust. I do say things here and there about myself because sometime I go so down and I do need you all. My appreciation to all of you is huge and I'm always thankful for all of you for being so patient with me.



Thank you all!