so completly alone.
like curling up in a ball and crying
numb
like a different person
like no one cares

did i mention alone???

Everyone who I care about is just slipping away from underneath me. I had hoped that distance wouldn't cause this ... but it has. I wish i wasn't here. I wish i wasn't the person I have been all summer. I wish I could sit down and talk and cry with my housemaster (she has pretty much been my mom for the past 2 years) .... but she's in Ontario ... I miss her so much. I dont know what to do. I know crying doesn't solve anything... but that seems to be all i've been doing ... I don't know what to do. My mom ran off to NYC with her new boyfriend for 5 days so I am literally here by myself.... and I hate who i've become by feeling like this forever........