Well, Reality Perfection,

You have got some additional stressors in your life that aren't helping you work through the emotions that you've been fighting for the past year. Have you worked with a T during this past year? Taken any medications or tried exercises to gain more control over anger management? What do you suppose is lying underneath this anger? Have you thought about that issue, to come up with things to work toward?

Just some helpful techniques for many ~ you may want to try a couple of them, to get into a better state of mind. I wish you the best!