I have done plenty in my life. I have suffered depression bouts and was anorexic at 14, through running and not eating. I spent nearly 30 years obsessively fitness training, I have always worked , army at 17, 12 years as a maths teacher.
My latest depression has been for 10 years, severe for 2 months.
I am single, have debt, hated my last 2 jobs teaching, then truck driver. I have lost interest in everything. I have no family around and no friends. I have my 11 year old x-collie Homer. I fear being homeless.
I have sought medical help, finally may get more than tablets. I have stopped work this week as it was not safe to continue in my current state.
The real trouble seems to be that I cannot see any future for myself, work, hobby, money, relationship etc, all seem to offer me no hope. I feel that I have reached a point that I wish my life over
People tell me 48 is young, take 1 day at a time etc, I am not sure any more that it is the depression or that there really is no point to my life.