(((( HUGS ))))

I'm sorry things are so hard for you right now. I'd imagine that it feels like rejection, but I hope you are able to put it in perspective and see that your T really cares but simply has to be sure you understand reality. It's not black and white. She didn't take back the idea of being there for you. She just needs you to be aware that she can't be accessible at all times, which is reasonable. I hope you can try to understand that. Accepting that does not take away from her desire to want to help you and be there for you.