Today I had to take Abby (my 4 yr old daughter) to the eye doctor. She was having pain in her eyes and was complaining of seeing red spots.

The doctor looked at her eyes and told me that she's developed more scar tissue behind her eyes. The scar tissue is pressing on her optic nerves. She has a very underdeveloped optic nerve in the right eye, and I've known that since she was 4 months old. So, that means she had very little vision in that eye to begin with. But now with this newly developed scar tissue, she has absolutely no vision in that eye. And she's also losing vision in the left eye.

There are no surgeries they can do to fix this. The doctor said that it's possible that she'll go completely blind eventually.

We took her to register for kindergarten last week, and they told me that she could be in a regular kindergarten class. But after finding this out today her doctor recommended a school for the blind.

I know there are worse things that can happen. But I am heartbroken. Is God testing me to see just how much I can handle at one time? I just don't know when this is ever going to end. I don't know how to handle this.