Thanks guys. Lauru I wasn't really offended or anything but I do have anxiety about being judged by others, so I do appreciate the clarification, and I understand the point you were trying to make. Thanks derek, just out of curiosity, do you have a link to a website or article about marijuana/bp?

Oh, and, if anyone's curious, I'm taking a few days off of benzos AND alcohol, it's good so far (day 3) no cravings or anything just a little antsy and muscle pain i'll be fine with some chamomile tea . I'll see how I feel cognitively in a few days and work from there.