Thanks, I don't feel you need to "shut up", it is good to hear from those here that are being supportive.
I know Phenterimine is a controlled substance, that is why I thought it may be too good to be true to be able to get it online, they just take a verbal questionaire and they claim their online staff writes the script and "their" pharmacy then sends it. Does this seem like a scam? I know my doc would not be happy about this, but I miss feeling like "super woman", ha!ha! One therapist said "slow" is real when I told him being off of the phen made me feel slowed down, he said you really aren't you just feel that way now. Who knows, my doc has put me on different med in Aug. they work excellent for me mentally, but I miss the stimulants, ha!ha!
Thanks so much for your reply. You can feel free to PM me anytime too, to talk about this.
Take care,
"darkeyes"

PS I wrote a poem in HS titled "No jesters ever danced for me" It was depressing so I burned it with my others when I got out of the depressed funk. But it is something how a "jester" has managed to make me smile