I am sorry to hear about your situation but I want you to know that God is not testing you. He isn't the one that is doing this but He is the One who is holding your hand while you go through this. I have never been in a situation like yours, however, I have had a rough time in the past year. I am a oboist (woodwind musician) and over the past year I have collapsed my lungs 8 times, had 3 surgeries, 8 chest tubes, and have missed weeks of school. I don't know what is going to happen from now on but you know, God has got my back. I know it may seem like hell but you can deal with it and there are lots of people here who will help you through it. God Bless you and your daughter and I wish you strength in any path your life might take