Thanks Kindachaotic!

I got my husband to talk to a counselor. But I wasn't invited to attend. The first meeting was just information gathering. However, my husband said he was told that children come first and that he better do everything possible to fix it with them.

So.... I am kinda confused. Can't a couple have the best of both worlds? Stay married and fix the kids?? Why do I have to be thrown away? It just caused me more anxiety. Maybe it is the right advice but I guess I wasn't prepared to hear that.

I have made an appointment for me to see a therapist. I had no idea where to call for help but I guess anywhere is better than no where, right?

I sure hope I can prepare my heart for whatever answers come. It is hard to love someone so much and not be loved back the same.

Thanks for the advice to get counseling. I will try that. If anyone has been through something similar to this and would want to give me advice on what worked for them, I am all ears.