Complete inattention. I should be used to it by now it's the way we are. I come from a very cold distant group of people. I just find it really hard to believe that they can't see something is wrong. I know I'm being unfair to them. They have their own stuff going on and I'm far to old to be dependent on them. It's hard to get my head around it sometimes though, even a simple acknowledgement would go a long way. I've spent so long trying to convince them I'm better. I've brought it on myself, the only way I've earned their respect is by hiding and giving up. I do the only thing my family respects, I work myself to death. Forsaking any hope of a normal personal life. I have no friends, I dread coming home from work because I don't know what to do with myself. I'm defined as a person by my job. I think some of my anxiety is tied into that. I just took a new job where I will get to come home every couple of weeks instead of every couple of months and I'm going to have to face isolation I can't explain away.