I'm actually going to go for sure, just working on the steps to get into the program and I am doing everything I can do to keep it moving forward. It is totally my decision and I want to do it. I cannot live this way. There is no way I will put up with looking in the mirror and hating myself anymore. Something inside tells me that there is so much more planned for me, that I can make a difference or do good things. There is more missing in my life than I know and I know I am missing out on living. I am very hopeful.