I realize I could put this on the DID forum, but sometimes I hate posting stuff there, because sometimes I feel like stuff just gets views there, because strangers want to read stuff about DID. So when I want to feel safe I go to other boards. And since it's about a treatment provider I came here.

I am really embarrassed that I switched (like dissociative identity disorder) switched in front of my psych rehab worker today.

I think I was really shocked that she handled it the way she did though. Really well. She helped me ground myself. And then I'm like "why couldn't my old team do that"? I had such issues with them being able to handle my illness. I think people are so used to throwing medications at people and that's it. But you definitely can't do that with DID.

I went undiagnosed for so many years, because my team didn't know what DID looked like. They thought it looked like Sybil, and so I suffered for a long time, because my head didn't spin and I didn't start talking in demon voices? I don't know? And then I went to a trauma center and they said I was an "obvious" case.

But I don't know her that well, so I'm surprised that I did switch in front of her, because I thought that I had some sort of control over my switching, but it turns out I really don't. I also had a massive switch in front of an intake coordinator for my new psychiatrist.

And I can't find triggers for these switches either. They're very random.