aww...*hugs pet*...i know the feeling all too well. i haven't si'd in 7 months, and there are times when i feel the desire to. its hard not to sometimes, when that was once such a comfort thing for me. at times i sit here, thinking, what if? what if i were to do it? would the feeling of comfort come back, and i'd continue doing it, or would i feel extreme guilt for starting something that i stopped so long ago? sometimes i just dont know what to do. i know i shouldnt do it. i know it hurts not only myself, but those around me who care about me. so i totally know where you are coming from. i'm here if you need to talk ok. please know that.
sniffles