My family suffered from a lot panic things in our life, jail, etc. so now there is still a cold air always. and very nervous to each other........
I can not visit them oftenly. and my head is still so cloudy if ever thinking of this .......I love my family, but feel helpless and hopeless....
My brothers and sisters all pass the age or marriage already, but none of us invovle in any good relationships up to now, all just pain story, or never involve anyone.....we desire love, but it will never happen.....