((Dreamy))

My T was going to have an operation, and I became obsessed with the idea that she might die. I spent nearly three months working through my feelings about that. It was some of the best therapy work I've ever done. I now feel that I know what to do if T dies, and although it would be very painful, I would cope. I also feel much less terrified of my own death.

So bringing it up was a good decision for me. And my T survived her operation.