This can be a bit of a lengthy story, so I'll do my best to keep it short. I'm currently 29 and my ex an I split up nearly 3 years ago after a year and a half together. I honestly believed she was the one and was close to proposing after about a year, which is when things started to go south. Her parents had a lot to do with our breakup. Mind you, I'm clean cut, educated, have a career, my own place, not abusive (if anything was too good to her), etc. She found someone about 6 months after we broke up and I found out about it nearly 2 years ago and I feel into a massive depression since. As far as I can tell, they're still together and are likely engaged, possibly even getting married soon (I don't want to know for sure because the truth could destroy me). I emailed her last year in an attempt to get back with her and she rejected me and told me how happy she was in her relationship with this guy. I still to this date feel like it was a mistake letting her go, even though she treated me less than great the last few months we were together and was the one who initiated the breakup. I just feel like she got everything she wanted since and I've been on a rough path since (which it has been for me in my life for the past few years).

Since then, I've actively tried to date around have found a string of one or two month relationships before they don't work out. Nothing like the love and relationship that I had with my ex. I keep having nightmares my ex several times a week. It's horrible. A lot of times it's her telling me how she's so happy with this other guy, how I was a mistake, and stuff along those lines...they're never happy dreams like us being together. I feel so tormented by this and wish it would stop. Why in god's name can't I get over this woman? Why do I keep having these nightmares?